My main aim in life is to go deeper into my relationship with God. Everything else aids to this cause and works together to accomplish all that is good. Should my heart feign to find rest elsewhere I would find myself utterly unhappy and not understand why. God is my true Help! I shall not fail. My heart pours out blessings because God’s truth is with me. Bless His Name forever! Amen!

What are mathematicians dealing with when they claim they are dealing with numbers? What they are working with are sets of mathematical properties as objects not mathematical objects per se.

God will provide.

Thank you God, I thank you.

Don’t feign knowledge when you have none.

God be my truest aim. Let all things flow out from my striving towards You. Amen.

Your vast Love is spread out over the sky.

The Lord in His goodness brings about and takes away. Shall we trust in the Lord?

There are things that only ever increase as they are given away. Heavenly things these are. In giving forgiveness our heart and capacity to forgive increase. In understanding our ability to understand those different from us grows. In giving away love love only ever overflows until our love overlaps God’s true Love. We give ourselves away and we give the things of this world that diminish as they are given away in exchange for what cannot be taken away from us. The very God gives Himself to us. Oh let us give and receive and receive and give!

Are people born into hell or into heaven? Or are people born into heaven yet enter hell very soon after? People surely experience pieces of hell or heaven while being fully in neither.

To put it crudely: Christians are those whose firmest and truest inner principle is Christ Himself.

Most often our vision of God, our thoughts about God, our feelings toward God are tied up with our life’s desires. Regardless of the propositions we think we accept about God, how we actually relate to God is heavily influenced by what our desires are and how they are met.

In the world of the spirit, there is no thing done that is mere happenstance. Spiritually one only ever does what one really means to do.

Oh the true freedom of the heart! How it comes as my trust in my Father above deepens. Thank You Lord. I can only say thank You. I can only thank You.

Where I am there I will be a pleasing aroma to You my Lord. Oh Lord be my Help!

One might say, “I know (or believe) that Jesus is near to me but I wish I could feel it.”

The Lord wishes to put Heaven in me—not in my writing! All this time I sought to approximate what I read of God’s Heaven in my words only, as if writing were a fitting medium for the unspeakable riches of God’s dwelling place. God sought to place Himself in me. What! Not with dead words but with my very life! I will shine with God’s Glory not my words. Yet even my words will shine. Amen! Glory to God on High. Glory to God with me.

There is so much I don’t know and even what I may know I can’t say well enough what they are. What can I say for what my spirit knows that my mind can’t access? Yet I live my life as my spirit knows not as my mind knows. God will bring maturity of my mind in the time He sees fit. May I live according to my faith in Him not as my mind attests, and when the two grow harmonious blessed be the Lord!

The Lord is enough for me. He satisfies me fully. I lack nothing. I am the Lord’s and He is mine! Blessed be His name. Amen!

Blessed, whatever may come—this is blessedness. Joyful in every circumstance—this is abiding joy. Every new development is an occasion for joy and blessedness. No mistakes. Perfection at every step.

Modeling seems basically to be a sort of pattern tracking with well-placed constraints. And since constraints are essential for the sorts of patterns to be tracked, it may also be said that modeling is pattern tracking under these constraints and not others.

My life has been a mixture of things I got  because I wanted them and of things that were given to me without my much care for them. But I must say, on the whole, I seem to enjoy much more the things that were given to me than the things I got for myself. 

Sin seems to produce hellish inner worlds. It ensnares and traps into a vicious cycle of greater sin and it torments the one who sinned as if there is a fire within one’s soul. It is the sort of unbearable pain that sears from within that one cannot soothe with any external ailment. Who can extinguish such hellfire?

God is Love. We can’t understand this very well so we propose alternatives to understand it in ways we can. We say things like, ‘God is loving.’ But no. God is Love. We fail to grasp this in full because we have only partial understandings of both God and Love. It is as if we only see the afterglows and surrounding radiances of the Center that is both God and Love and think that this part of the afterglow and radiance is more akin to God and that part more akin to Love. We fail to see the true Center where God is Love and think that our limitation demarcates a real distinction in God.

Our trials come to us like baptisms of fire. They force us to change. And we are made purer one trial after another. The beautiful Light of God about our souls shines ever stronger, and we are restored to Him who loves us.

Theological loose ends (epistemic imperfections not loose ends in reality, whatever that may mean): arbitrary election, trinity, predetermination/choice, love of God and hell…

Partially meaningful conceptual devices useful for making some headway towards understanding matters we would otherwise do worse without. Guidance to better understanding is to be sought via the life in the Spirit by developing proper spiritual intuitions and visions. The sensibility of the devices waxes and wanes depending on how much we decide to focus on the sensibility and significance of surrounding concepts. We cannot seem to be (at least for now) totally precise and consistent about every somewhat true—or truth-revealing—concept all at once.

   (But then what are we missing? What exactly is our problem? Do we simply lack information that would reconcile inconsistencies at the comprehensive level? Are the concepts too vague? Do we err in what details the concepts do strictly suggest, i.e., our concepts are wrong and cannot be applied finally to any carving of reality? Or are concepts necessarily only heuristic? Perhaps our limitation is our brain. If we think of our brains as idiosyncratic reality maps or models then given that our brains are not infinitely complex our models or maps can only finitely approximate. Given the finite resource of complexity, it would seem more advantageous that our mappings be flexible in adjusting scope depending on which map would prove to be most useful for the task at hand. Our theological concepts may likewise be necessarily bottlenecked in their total accuracy as a result of this sort of material limitation.)

Why did I live in the flames of deceit? The infinite wealth of God is calling me now. I am glad and happy. I will dwell in the Lord.

Reading books in a weather that has just started to turn a bit chilly is so pleasant; it’s one of the pleasures of my soul. 

Ideas have implications—somehow there are ‘correct relations’ to other ideas. What are the coordinating constraints that determine the sense of this correctness?

Our ideas of God are always approximations in some sense because they are never fully accurate or exhaustive matches with the whole reality of God. Suppose God to be like a limit where perfect happiness, goodness, and love coalesce infinitely. Our approximations can miss this limit, and given that we are infinitely approximating creatures where our approximations (or transformations) approach some limit, we would either infinitely converge to happiness or infinitely diverge from it. There is no partial overlap with this divine happiness when our developments are to be scaled infinitely. But infinite convergence or infinite divergence describes a process in relation to its end. Any specific point in the process can of course have overlaps and partial matches. And that is God’s grace on us. Foretastes and imperfect understandings are meant to draw us ever deeper into Himself. We are invited and drawn to taste His goodness and love so that we may choose more of Him and come to experience Him more. It is His joy and delight to share His own infinite happiness—which is the expression of His Love! So He calls. So He draws to Himself. Blessed be His Name! Amen!

It is easy for us to err in our understanding of Him, and so be damned to hell because of it. But God has given us a failsafe way to Himself. This is partly the function of faith. Our faith is meant to guide the developments of our understandings and ideas of God. Our ideas of God will change through our experiences in life and the choices we make. They will either deepen and come closer to the truth of God, or not. Faith, which is God’s gift to us, will be grace to our errings and guide to our truer thoughts.

Love makes all things as it is—Love transforms the ‘aspects’, ‘features’, ‘qualities’ of the things it accompanies with the characteristics befitting of Love.

What exactly is the relation that God and man have? What is it for us to relate to God in all the ways that we think we do? What about us constitute different relations to God? If I say I love God, what makes this true? If I claim I believe something about God, what makes this true? (This is of course a two part question at least. Something about us makes it true that some relations hold than not. And then there are ways that God is that make it true that our relations to Him are the way they are.)

Suppose we take ideas to have representational values. (Perhaps we can assign them based on some reference framework—perhaps we can operationalize much along the contours of James’ pragmatic concerns.) Perhaps correct relations between ideas can be construed as a function of certain interactions, overlaps, and dovetails of relevant representational values between ideas. (This idea is incomplete; almost useless.)

Heaven is only a roundabout way of talking about God, only an indirect way of describing certain aspects of existing near to God where His Love is tangible—by which I mean the contact point of His Love is everywhere.

Metaphors have directions of reality conveyance. Metaphors use familiar imageries to bring about partial or selective understandings of unfamiliar things. The content of the metaphor is often less than wholly true or real. If the content of the metaphor contains incredible elements, metaphorical direction is often thought to have a downward tilt to terminate in ordinary lessons. But there also exist upward directing metaphors. And would people know it? The whole of earthly existence is an upward directing metaphor—a metaphor hinting at things more real than the elements of the metaphor themselves.

We attribute clarity or disambiguity to a piece of writing. If something is disambiguous then that more or less means that there is a salient unique meaning of that piece of writing. But having a salient unique meaning is not an intrinsic property of the thing to which we may attribute it. The governing semantic framework will assign a range of possible meanings to a given piece of language. Any semantic framework that assigns discrete values of meaning can produce disambiguous phrases quite easily but its expressive power will be limited. A semantic framework that assigns values on a spectrum will be more powerful than the ones that assign discrete values but a phrase will never be full-stop disambiguous. 

Disambiguous saying is a saying that is clear in meaning. Disambiguity in communication is more than a disambiguity of a piece of interpretable phrase with the rules of disambiguation given by an interpretive scheme or a semantic framework. Disambiguity in communication is essentially a matter of a sort of ‘harmonious’ coordination between two or more complexes. (I have a clear sense of what I mean by this now as I write it. But will I understand this later? A bunch of ideas hold in my mind as I write that I left out of writing that I might not have later. But this parenthetical remark is also relevant for what I say above. Disambiguity in communication is essentially about sharing a common understanding (or more generally as a thing to which a harmonious coordination of relevant surrounding interconnections standardize) that can be described as ‘heartful agreement’, ‘getting it’, and so on which is a relevant matching, partial or otherwise, of certain inner ‘mental’ parts. If my future self still possesses the same sort of ideas that support my thinking about this issue in the way I do now, then we will be sharing the same understanding with respect to what I mean to say by this writing. I will be able to comment on this issue, whether to agree or disagree, whether to change stuff to it and so on as the ideas will provide sufficient orientation to ‘get this’ writing in more or less the same way I do now.)

You can see the majesty of God in every sunset and you can see the joy and brilliance of His new life in every sunrise. Every breath is full of His Spirit and every closing of eyes deep with His Peace. These things are not separate from seeing the Love of Christ in the heart of every person, and to see the very image and glory of God in the face of every man. One sees out of one’s heart the things God reveals to him. Let our vision of Him change our very being.